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Road to Trusting
Posted on January 17th, 2008 No commentsI have been a member of CoDA for two years. The journey has been eventful, the road uneven, but I have not traveled alone.
I enjoyed the support, confidence, and love of my group at first, combined later with trust and guidance in a Higher Power of my choice.
I was so sick with resentment and self-pity I was slow to learn how to detach and not judge. I divorced the alcoholic in my life and found life still unmanageable. I could not divorce my children. I have learned to let them go, one at a time, and the rewards have been tremendous. As a result I experienced relationships with honesty, dignity, tolerance, and love–a first for me. CoDA gave me the tools: my meetings, the slogans, Steps, and Traditions.
The relationship I am working on today is with myself. Participation in the Program gives me confidence and courage. I am beginning to know myself and continually focus on Steps Three and Eleven. I still operate with resistance, which I find almost as tiring as resentment. I found Step Seven and it helps.
I have trust in my Higher Power and try to be tolerant toward myself, keep enthusiastic, and go slow. To get in tune with that Power I turned to nature. Once in touch with the natural rhythm and beauty of life I am able, once again, to focus on what I can do instead of what I cannot. I know there is a solution for every problem, a way through.
Today I have made progress with gentleness, courage, gratitude, hope, and forgiveness.
Today’s Meditation from:
Stepping Stones to Recovery From Codependency from Hazelden Meditations -
Prayer is a Choice
Posted on January 15th, 2008 No commentsWe may have learned as children that saying our prayers demonstrates our devotion to God–and if He is convinced of our sincerity, our requests of Him might be granted.
In spite of all our adult sophistication, when we think now about praying, we may do so with the same underlying attitude still in place.
But prayer isn’t a way of placating God, staying in His good graces in order to get what we want. Our Higher Power doesn’t need us to pray, isn’t angry or disappointed if we don’t. We are under no compunction to pray. The choice is entirely ours.
When we pray, we attune ourselves to a depth of love, wisdom, understanding, and guidance far greater than our personalities can generate.
When we pray, we avail ourselves of help from a Power that can do for us what we, on our own, cannot.
When we pray, if we align our wills with our Higher Power’s will for us, our lives automatically become more manageable and we know greater freedom, greater serenity, and greater peace.
Today’s Meditation from:
Women Who Love Too Much by Robin Norwood
